Almost Ramadhan.
Thinking about it make me sad, to be away from home.
But I need to learn to be grateful. someone else loose love one this year, being in unstable job.
I'm beyond grateful. I have stable job, stable life. and we can't get everything in this life. So might as well just enjoy the moment, while we still live in the moment.
I just miss my husband, my mom. and entertaining people during berbuka.
my fav time of the month.
So class have started, and it has been 2 weeks. and I feel in love with it again.
I no longer hate teaching.
they say those who can't do, teach.
In my context, I just don't want to do it, accounts, audit or taxation, so at least I teach others so they can be better at work then me. I found all of those, a little bit unenthusiastic. I guess.
For the last 2 years, I being questioning my choice of becoming lecturer. Now I've found the spark again.
I realize it wasn't me, it was, having the wrong place, or even the wrong audience.
Amazingly here I have few numbers of students, but I'm happier. I have much more conversation with my students than before.
Maybe they are more mature as they were bachelor degree students. I guess.
The discussion is more deepen and meaningful.
I'm far from people person, but these students make me feel like I'm worthy as an educator again.
I guess I just need to be more grateful.
The only problem is the distance.
