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Pray for My Mother's Umrah Journey 2017

#ONLYCHILDSYNDROME DO EXIST!

When my mom is around I always wanted to be left alone, but now she doing her UMRAH I wish to be with her all the time. It is not easy to let her go alone but this is ibadah. her ibadah. I can't stop, all I can do is wishing her well. Praying that Allah will provide His Mighty protection towards my mom. Bring her back safely to me on 12th and for us to live happily ever after.

I think UAE is too far. 9 hours of flight.

"Come on! It is not big deal farhana, she was traveled by herself before too, to South Korea, she'll be fine. Don't worry much la" inside voice

Please guys who ever read this wish her safe flight go to Madinah and Mekkah and comback in Malaysia. I only have her. Please pray for her safety. I love you mak. #onlychildsyndrome clingy tak tentu pasal.


Tips to enroll yourself in Master.

THE STRUGGLE IS REAL! Is not just me. It's everybody else. 
Before you enroll yourself, think thoroughly. 
Attend classes, exam is easy.
The hard part is THESIS. 
I'm trying not to follow my mood while writing, but I'm not that inspired to write. these kind of obstacle make me want to quit. For example; my response rate is too low, my information is too small, my supervisor expectation is too high. this all lead to "PROCRASTINATION'.

Everyday I keep questioning why?! why I enroll myself? why my brain do not function well? why am I even exist? you know all sort of question.
I have no tips to give how to overcome this. but rational mind will help. I'm still alive and barely living because of my rationality. Think about where are you at now. think about how u made it till today. 
I have give up everyday like "I should just quit studying" but what stop me is time and money I have spend to get this Master. I will survive this storm. No matter what. even i…

Dream

Yesterday I dreamed about you. you were there standing straight as I run to you. I hug you and ask to never leave again. I wish I have done it often while you were here. So I cried cause it only a dream. I never felt this lonely for very long time. When you around as you lying on your sick bed, I was busy taking care of you. The least I have you to tease and to entertain. Now I’m all alone in this house while mom going for work and tired in the evening. We didn’t do much talk I guess. I bet she’s also missing you dearly. But we all keeping it in as if nothing happen. As if you always here. Here in our heart. Pretty rough day being emotional and all. What a wreck daughter I am. All I wish is to make you proud. But I’m on verge to quit on everything I believe. I believe, I can finish master. But can I? I wish you were here. Mom and you are my strength, now I lost half of it. It just not as good as before. I thought I will be tougher but I’m weaker everyday. I accept that you have gone now…

Ramadhan Tanpa Ayah Season 2.

Last phase of Ramadhan. 5 days to Syawal. Semoga amalan kita diterimaNya. Amin.
Bila hari-hari macam ni baru la rindu kasih sayang seorang ayah. Bukannya hari lain x rindu. cuma hari ni extra rindu. kesian emak. kereta perdana buat hal lagi. berkali-kali aku memujuk untuk menjual kereta itu, berkali-kali juga beliau menyangkal cadanganku. baginya kereta itu banyak kenangan bersama ayah. bagi aku benda yang menyimpan kenangan hanya pada nama, sebab kebanyakan yang simpan kenangan adalah hati dan ingatan. Itu lagi significant bagi aku la. tapi tak bagi emakku. baginya apa yang ayah pegang mahu di simpan. bukan aku mahu buang segala kenangan ayah, jika kenangan itu hanya memberi kepayahan pada yang hidup, baiklah kalau kenangan itu di simpan sahaja di dalam hati. bukan begitu? entahla aku pun bingung. nasib baik emak tidak keseorangan pagi ni. kami da la berdua tanpa seorang lelaki dalam hidup. pakcik pula jauh nun di perak. susah. sedih.
ayah pergi terasa terlalu cepat. tak sempat nk u…

Drama Review: Guardian: The Lonely and Great God

I've been itching to do this review. This drama have passed like 3 months ago, yet the fever from this drama are not yet passed. 
This is a very good drama, and there are no drama suppress this yet. Like I never watch other new drama,  because this drama make my expectation goes high. 
We still want love story yet we want something out of the box. 
something handsome to watch. yup this drama has two mc dreamy. ha ha. 
So,  Its fascinating and new perspective of Korean drama. Like thumb up for this drama. I have watched this drama like 10 times. because its so sweet and handsome and pretty. So yeah, worth watching it. and you should too.
p/s: I know my review is boring because I'm saying like what everyone said, but who cares. So if you which to watch for free and download for free kindly click this link  http://myasiantv.se/drama/goblin/ 
for your infor they do not pay me. I just love to share.

Inspiration, please come!

Basically, I should probably starting writing my thesis again, but I have trouble to do anything. too lazy. too tired. lack of inspiration I guess. I also do not make any contact yet with my supervisor. I need to do better first before starting again. At least that what I feel. I bet my supervisor feel quite disappointing in me, so I need to make a comeback. Boom! he he
Searching for article with questionnaire intact is not easy. So, yeah basically that, when its too hard I tend to give up pretty easily. that's another problem. ha ha First I thought my table too messy, so I'm not inspired. Now my chair not so comfy to sit for hours. Weirdly, I can sat on these chairs for hour to writing BS or watching BS. I guess I'm just freaking lazy. ha ha. I hope I can send out questionnaire by this month. at least I have another 2 month to write shits. ha ha. So I take it slow and easy. Trying to organised my mind first. I need to be inspired. (Bang my head on the table) T-T