21st December 2020

 Mundane blues hits hard today.

I have been under my blanket after breakfast 8.30 a.m until now. So basically I've been teaching with blanket over my shoulder. 

This week is the last week of semester and 2nd last week of 2020. 

So I'm a little bit lay back because most of everything is almost done. Almost everything. 

2020 has been hard on everyone all over the world. 

For me my 2020 flew by so fast... I don't even remember half of it. I purposely probably forgetting everything unimportant matter anyway. 

I'm sleepy. I sleep late every night and I'm developing a bad dark circle over my eyes. Blame my new phone. 

16 DECEMBER 2020

My mom has backed from hometown basically a week ago. Now her husband also here. I'm okay with it anyway. I don't mind at all but sometimes my mother can be a little bossy. She's always like pushing me to do something that I don't want to do yet. I was about to do it anyway but I was to lazy at the moment. I'm kind of egoistic person. So I can't be bossed. Every time she do that I just feels like I might be a little rude. 

Anyway... like always I have deep thoughts about things...

For example if I can do everything perfectly by my own, I basically don't really need a man in my life. Let's be real, we get married to have what?... to make our life it little bit easier like changing a light bulb, or charging the car or install any big things that "girl can't do". But I literally do everything by myself. So... I came to conclusion that I don't really need a male in my life. I have enough male figure in my life I don't need another one.. I guess. 

I know life can be a little lonely sometimes. But I'll be fine. Like always.