175 Days of LDR: When Life Gives You Tangerines
I finally work up the courage to watch "When Life Give You Tangerine"
I was expected it to be sad. but not heartbreaking sad.
There were a few scenes that made me cry like crazy—most of them centered around a father-daughter relationship. I just couldn’t hold it in. It hit too close to home.
Watching the drama made me realize there were a few words I never had the chance to say to my Ayah. I truly hope he knew and understood them, even though I never said them out loud. My biggest regret is that I cried so much on the day he left—without knowing it would be his last. I wish I had said I’m sorry for everything I did that may have left a scar on his heart. I hope he knew that I never meant to hurt him. That was never my intention. I was young and foolish, assuming he would always be around. I thought he’d be by my side, at least until I had children. I forgot that he, too, only had one life.
I also realize now how unthoughtful I’ve been at times towards my Emak. I love her deeply, but sometimes we get on each other’s nerves. Still, that doesn't change how much she means to me.I’m going to try to be kinder to her, because the truth is—we never know how much time we have left on this earth. One of us will leave this world first, and I don’t want to carry any more regrets.
Last night, I cried myself to sleep. I guess I miss my Ayah a little more deeply than I usually admit. They say time heals everything, but I’ve come to realize that sometimes, the missing never truly fades. Every now and then, the ache comes back—stronger than it should, heavier than I expect.
My honest review: "When Life Gives You Tangerines" may hits differently for everyone. Some may see it through the lens of a mother-daughter bond, others through the father-daughter or father-son relationship. It also touches on the dynamics between husband and wife, family by blood, and family by heart. It explores grief, the weight of being the firstborn, and the quiet traumas we carry.
What struck me the most is how the relationship we’ve hurt—or been hurt by—the most, often becomes the heaviest burden in our lives. This drama captures so many aspects of life that we sometimes forget to appreciate… and I’m guilty of that too.
So let’s take a moment to truly appreciate the people around us and the life we’re living. Let’s also be a little kinder to ourselves. We need that, more than we realize.
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