Do I make you feel lonely?

Since birth, I never felt lacking with love

Everybody love me without asking for anything back

I live in very lovely, ordinary family.

My parents had to work, in order to provide me with necessities.

Being an only child, I tend to be more independent than my peers.

But the downside was,  I'm always alone, taking care of me.

Do I sound ungrateful? But I'm not. 

I understand my parents had to worked for us to stay afloat. 

I totally get it... But unfortunately it does give my some times alone..most of the time.

And at time I feel so lonely..

Now as a functional adult, I hate being independent but I have to.

Now that I'm married, I want to be dependent.

Does it make sense?

I have nothing but received love,

My parents loved me beyond reasons, 

My husband definitely love love me,

His family adored me,

But what is wrong with me?

I still feel void and emptiness.

And it occured to me,

Do I love me?

Do I love me?

Do I love me?

Perfect silent...

And it clicks ah... It was me.

The problem is me.. or I'm the solutions?

So now I decided that I will be in a journey to find me.

Pray for me.