Tuesday, October 14, 2025

358 Days of LDR: 4 days until You

My current fav song "Wi$h Li$t" 

"I just want you, huh, Have a couple kids, got the whole block looking like you, We tell the world to leave us thе fuck alone, and they do, wow. Got me drеaming 'bout a driveway with a basketball hoop, Boss up, settle down, got a wish (Wish) list (List). I just want you"

It's been a month since last time I saw my husband in person, So I just can't wait for the days to happen again. I miss him everyday, though when we met we kind a annoyed with one another, and weirdly he still my favorite person. 

Itu je ah. 

Bye. 

Thursday, October 09, 2025

353 Day of LDR: Twelve Days Left

 Twelve days left.

Twelve sunsets before I get to go home, and somehow it lands on the same day I first walked into this workplace a year ago. October 21st. One year of learning, surviving, pretending to be okay, and quietly growing in ways I didn’t even notice.

Funny how Allah arranges things. To return home exactly on the day I began, it feels like a sign, a soft reminder that I’ve come full circle.

This place has taught me strength in quiet ways. It taught me patience, silence, and how to stand when no one is there to hold you. Some days felt too long, too lonely. Some days I wanted to give up. But I didn’t. I stayed, and I made it through.

And now the thought of home feels heavier, like peace waiting for me at the door. The laughter, the comfort, the smell of familiar air. I miss it all.

Twelve more days. Just twelve.

And I’ll finally be home again, not just to a place, but to myself.

Thursday, October 02, 2025

345 Days of LDR: 30 Days until US again

Today, I want to write about the end of this long-distance chapter. Just 30 more days until I’ll finally be in his arms again. The thought alone fills my heart with so much gratitude and happiness. After a year of waiting, counting days, and holding on to late-night calls, the finish line is finally in sight.


I picture the reunion so clearly in my mind: he’ll pick me up here in JB, and then we’ll leave JB together with no looking back. From there, we can start building our home again — renovate the little things, restock the refrigerator, and enjoy home-cooked meals every day. That simple dream of living together again feels like the sweetest gift after all this distance.


Of course, worries come along too. The new workplace means a two-hour commute each day. That alone sounds tiring, and the idea of crowded places and constant interactions stirs up my anxiety. Honestly, I’m not preparing much for it — just praying for the best, and hoping I’ll find the rhythm when the time comes.


And while I look forward to these personal joys, my heart is also heavy for others. Today I cried and prayed for the Sumud Flotilla, hoping they arrive safely in Gaza and return home unharmed. Sometimes I feel guilty living in peace and comfort while, in another part of the world, people of the same faith are struggling just to meet their basic needs. It humbles me and reminds me to be grateful, to pray harder, and to never take this life for granted.


Still, life has always been a mix of joy and challenge. This move isn’t just about work; it’s about love, growth, and finally being close to the person who matters most. The thought of walking through all the difficult parts and then coming home to him — maybe that’s all the strength I need.


For now, I’ll hold onto the countdown. Thirty days away. Thirty days until distance becomes closeness again.


Ya Allah… please make these days easy for me. Grant me patience, calm my restless heart, and bless our reunion with love and peace. Protect my husband, our home, and this new journey we are about to start together. And please, Ya Allah, protect our brothers and sisters in Gaza. Let the Sumud Flotilla reach safely, return safely, and may You grant freedom, dignity, and comfort to those who are suffering. Ameen.

358 Days of LDR: 4 days until You

My current fav song "Wi$h Li$t"  "I just want you, huh, Have a couple kids, got the whole block looking like you, We tell the...