Skip to main content

Dream

Yesterday I dreamed about you. you were there standing straight as I run to you. I hug you and ask to never leave again. I wish I have done it often while you were here.
So I cried cause it only a dream. I never felt this lonely for very long time. When you around as you lying on your sick bed, I was busy taking care of you. The least I have you to tease and to entertain. Now I’m all alone in this house while mom going for work and tired in the evening. We didn’t do much talk I guess. I bet she’s also missing you dearly. But we all keeping it in as if nothing happen. As if you always here. Here in our heart. Pretty rough day being emotional and all. What a wreck daughter I am. All I wish is to make you proud. But I’m on verge to quit on everything I believe. I believe, I can finish master. But can I? I wish you were here.
Mom and you are my strength, now I lost half of it. It just not as good as before. I thought I will be tougher but I’m weaker everyday. I accept that you have gone now but I’m allow to miss you right? Right? ayah.

I guess this is how mak feel when I left her to go to school. I’m proud of mak. Always. Not easy without you thou.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Movies and Dramas Reviews

I have decided to do drama or movie review. It probably will be movies that I have done watching at cinema that day, or I have just downloaded that movies. I will not follows years. I maybe jump up here and there.

I maybe only focusing on two type of movies English and Korean of course. I am a Malay girl but I really have problem how Malaysian's director portray us in the movies and dramas, it just not make sense to me.

I will review the movies or drama based on my merely mortal humble opinion. I maybe just put my satisfaction level. Not more not less. I will not comment on how the movies goes or whatever, although I may provide some spoiler for those who have not watched it.

So yeah. I'll do it when I feel it. Maybe only. :)

I do not expect anyone to read but if anyone read it hope you feel my writing is useful.

The End.

Ramadhan Tanpa Ayah Season 2.

Last phase of Ramadhan. 5 days to Syawal. Semoga amalan kita diterimaNya. Amin.
Bila hari-hari macam ni baru la rindu kasih sayang seorang ayah. Bukannya hari lain x rindu. cuma hari ni extra rindu. kesian emak. kereta perdana buat hal lagi. berkali-kali aku memujuk untuk menjual kereta itu, berkali-kali juga beliau menyangkal cadanganku. baginya kereta itu banyak kenangan bersama ayah. bagi aku benda yang menyimpan kenangan hanya pada nama, sebab kebanyakan yang simpan kenangan adalah hati dan ingatan. Itu lagi significant bagi aku la. tapi tak bagi emakku. baginya apa yang ayah pegang mahu di simpan. bukan aku mahu buang segala kenangan ayah, jika kenangan itu hanya memberi kepayahan pada yang hidup, baiklah kalau kenangan itu di simpan sahaja di dalam hati. bukan begitu? entahla aku pun bingung. nasib baik emak tidak keseorangan pagi ni. kami da la berdua tanpa seorang lelaki dalam hidup. pakcik pula jauh nun di perak. susah. sedih.
ayah pergi terasa terlalu cepat. tak sempat nk u…

Throwback Wednesday #1

Why people procrastinate? Are they lazy? Are they distracted? or They just want to procrastinate? 
Anyway, before new year I put my revision on hold. Now I believe I'm back on track. with 2 days left to final. he he. Not yet start feeling anxious, yet to come. Still spent time to writing something. Well, eventually I will read and remember everything. Hopefully.
So today I just want to do major #throwback.
PD is awesome, the whether is awesome too. I only get little sunburn. So yeah, it quite nice. 
There was incident that day, I almost drained all my blood, my lovely nephew was missing like 30 min on the beach. there was thousands of people that day. So its pretty hard to find him in the crowd and he is not 100cm yet. I was mad for a second to his mother for not watching him properly, he was just 3 years old. I was thinking that day we would loose him. It was sad and angry all at the same time. So we found him, actually he found us, and I was just so glad, grateful and hope this…