How people falls in love?

Have you ever wonder how people falls in love?

2 separate bodies, dwell in unimaginable future undertaking. with no perspective what is going to happen next or the silver linings of what happen today. How can people fall in love without hesitation? How a person make a decision to be with one person for a whole life? while life was so unpredictable and unimaginable what it might hold.

What make people decide to love? How can they stay in love? What make they love another? What the other do for us to keep loving?

I know, It is a very heavy subject for a single and lonely person like me. I am even panting while writing this. How it so absurd to my brain but not to my heart?

They say, love is something you not using your brain to acted on it. But how come? Brain is integral part of human anatomy. It is at the top of the anatomy. Though it is only protected by merely scull. But then again it is the first organ you see if you have top to bottom view.

On the other hand, heart is protected by a rib cage, how come it so easy to penetrate? How can love just take it over without reluctant. It just woosh into your heart and not sure when it gets out.

to think about it, it is so complicated.

By looking at my first question, you probably think I have the answers. Kindly highlighted that I'm single and lonely. I was asking the question for you to answer. I bet nobody will help but Oh well I might as well just post it anyway cause I have written this far.

So yeah, why, how? anybody?

Help Me God.

I have been dealing with lots of things that I think was bad. Until, I have seen everyone else life. Some have it worst than I do. Felt like I was living under the rocks knowing everything going to be fine and for some other they will never be fine. But they live their life as they will be fine.

How can I be so ungrateful and not be thankful to God enough. How silly and stupid I am. How can I be so ungrateful to life that Allah have borrow me. He borrowed me my dad. So He took it back. I cry and even blamed destiny. He borrow me my mom and I wish to keep her longer.

Life isn't always rainbow and unicorn. I have to wake-up and be more mature so I can be reasonable, thoughtful and sympathize  more to others.

Every morning I wake up I pray and I went to work. So on the way to my working place, there an area where I can see people dress as if they are selling their body like what I have seen on TV. So I was wondering why they have to do what they have to do knowing probably that's maybe their only choice. I take my eyes away. Cause the longer I stay the longer I judge. I am also a sinner why I acted like I never made a mistake in my whole life. Maybe I am just an asshole. or maybe I'm a judgmental in certain way. Or maybe I was picturing life as rainbow and unicorn. I'm not sure Why I did what I did. I just wonder. How life so bad the other. and so good for another.

Some ustaz saying it just the way of Allah give us His test. I believe so and I know so. But why I still questioning. Am I drifted from His light and guidance already? or I was just confuse? It was too many question left unanswered. I should have read more. MAYBE.

Helpless Children.

So today I was on my way to pasar malam. 

So I stumble upon a kid who wrongly "lintas jalan", Cause he is like 3 to 4 years old. So he almost hit by the motorcyclist.

What I cannot brain is after the event the father just slap him on his face I assume was quite hard cause the kid was crying and asking for mercy from the father. I just shocked and I judged him too much in my car.  I give them like good stare look while hating whatever he did. So after that only the mother notice my snarlingly stare, then only she console the kid. I was like... what the.... the kids already shiver in fear because he was almost hits by the motorcycle.

I feel sorry for the kid. I imagine if something similar happen to irfan or iskandar. I already being so sarcastic to my cousin when she hit her kids behind my back, imagine if she hits in front of me. I probably killed her.

Kids under 7 years old is clueless about everything they do. Yes sometimes they can become tricky or manipulative but..... there is some exceptional.

If you hold your kid's hands, he may not almost hits by the car. He may not also being slapped by you.

I know probably the parents feels scared too. The fact that I was mad is that he felt sorry for the motorcyclist who almost hits his son. But he hits his son for almost dying today.

What a role model parents you are.

I may not understand how the parents really feels, but the action is so unreasonable. I know kids can be handful but hitting them for what we called accidental action is pathetic and unacceptable disgusting anger management issue.

I'm sure nobody read this. I just don't know where to let my frustration over this matter. I was so frustrated that my heart pumping so fast I wish I can just yell at them right there right then. Fuck You.

Children cannot protect themselves. That's where the parents comes in handy. That is the role of parents. If you think you cannot handle your anger try not to have the baby or go solve your anger issues. I bet your father always beat you while growing up.

I was so angry...... kaya harta tapi miskin jiwa. You prey on helpless children. What the fuck is wrong with you.

This is so general.

If you have anger management issue, go seek help. Talk to doctor or someone. Get help.