71 days Left

 These days all I did is counting days, No regret, No turning back, just moving forwards. 

I never been any clearer than this, this place no longer fit my vibes and goals as an educator, I don't want to be exhausted educator. Which I already am. 

I do think sometimes I'm reckless and over reacting, which I know I'm not cause everybody feels the same but I'm the only who making the drastic changes. 

I did not tell my mother yet, I don't know how to explain to her, because she does not operate like I do. She stay in a same job for 40 years, while me at 35 still figure it out what I want. The longest I stay in a company is 4 years, for the last 10 years of my career as corporate slave. I don't think that I have to tolerate every broken system that company have, I can always find another company that have system that met well with mine. I think so la. 

I understand there are no perfect ideal place to fit all our needs, but at least we should have 1 good thing from it. Here, I'm still searching and its been a year... and there are still big question mark. Normally I'm easily adapted and well blended by most at least 3 months, now it 14 months. still....I don't know..... maybe its me. 

Anyhow, I wish someday I find that what I want. Bismillah. Aamiin.